Walking On Cuz Im Wiser....

          At this very moment , my mind is a jumbled mess . Im still wide awake at nearly 3 AM playing instrumentals, writing (or at least trying to) ,and fielding some of the most unadulterated foolishness ever. Y'all know that right now Im solo like a 'red cup',and Im simply reveling in this comfort and peace . I deserve it after that stretch of what I know had to be a practical joke on my very existence. Today , from three individuals that know nothing of one another, I got the " So you dont mess with me no more" call/text. Wow. It only took a month( or more) of me not acknowledging your presence for you to figure that out huh? Hip hip hooray for public school education...
         I know pure uncut bullsh*t when I see it. The types of relationships that I had with these guys held no future , and with each of them I knew that from jump. It got real old and boring fast. Besides , Im still nursing wounds from U Know Who, and overcompensating with multiple personalities didnt fix a thing. Made it sting a little more when after a date  or a conversation Im left unfulfilled , missing the type of chemistry I had with "him". Yes , I said it . I still miss him . It was the closest thing I'd had to an actual relationship in a few years ,so why not? I sometimes light a candle  and play "We Reminisce Over You",in loving memory of the good times we had, you know. It wasnt ALL terrible...

         Who doesn't want happiness ,peace,and a love of their own? I certainly do , but the woman in me wouldnt allow the idiotic behavior to continue. Sometimes our selfish and /or carnal desires must take a backseat to our heartfelt convictions. I damn near had to make myself believe I really liked these fellas, so that already lets you know there was nothing to be had . I have never been the type of woman that needed a man to feel complete,but that's exactly what I did with them  by using them to fill the cracks of my broken heart .  Im wiser now. And Im still single as a dollar bill....

Going For Dolo...

     Please oh please dont call the people on me for neglecting yall. Its been a few weeks since my last post but between work, my baby and what seemed to be the resurgence of SARS, my time has been limited . I dont have long tonight, but I knew I had to holla at my people. Things have been pretty good as of late. No complaints. 2012 has been awesome thus far and I see nothing but excellence in the future. Besides faith and favor(my Grandmother would be pissed if I didnt mention that first),I had to make some significant changes on my own.I told yall last time about how I had to cut some suckas loose. Well I did that ,plus taking time out to acknowledge what  I will and will not deal with . Im so over spending time to pass the time. If Im not interested that's just it. I had one man get upset because I wont ring his phone off the hook. Helllllooooo, McFly,I dont do that sh*t!! Its just not in me to chase/sweat/stalk any man . Wont happen ,and seemingly today thats what these new dudes,some of them anyway , want and expect women to do. If it doesnt feel right Im not going, plain and simple.I had to figure out that I kept getting the same results because of me. Sure there were different players in the game , but the conclusion  never changed. In addition to the great Rapper Dude fiasco last year, it all became tiresome and monotonous. I never want to become one of those bitter "aint no good black men" types, so I began the transformation within myself. Ive encountered men who are confused, angry , playing the field with absolutely no skill, not to mention,'wack action'....nah son. A change had to come. I love the place Im in right now.Its not easy being fly ,but if removing myself from mayhem for just a little while is necessary, its all worth it...

Thanks For Coming Out- Good Night, God Bless...

     Happy New Year , Ladies and Gents! 2012 has arrived and we have 12 whole months to embark on new Shenanigans. Its going to be an awesome ride and I simply cannot wait to see what the new year has in store . If the first three days are any indication , we're going to have a ball,and Im going to talk plenty sh*t. With that being said, I have a little story to tell. Join me , will you????

     Already, Ive had to pull a Nino Brown and cancel a few muthaphu*as. Damn. Y'all couldnt wait til February to cut the natural born fool?? Oh well. Before the new year hit ,like at a random moment ,say 2:47 PM on December 27th, I woke up with a sudden renewed spirit. I mean, Im still me and I havent transformed into some all knowing super peaceful life coach guru or anything,but I just felt good about getting to know myself,really know myself and what I will and will not continue to deal with. I feel much more assured of what I want. I admit ,boredom propels me to do a lot of things that I of sound mind know I should not engage in. Well, I guess I'll start knitting, making mixtapes or pickling beets or something to combat that cuz last year I wasted a lot of time on people that didnt deserve to experience the Kid DiddyBop. Disappointment one after another,I finally got it.Apparently what I was doing wasnt working ,otherwise I would have different results. So being sweet to those that werent  sweet to me was just poor decision making. I decided to change things. Even though they were assh*le moves, I did a couple things , like delete and block some phone numbers, Facebook contacts, even peaced out one on his birthday .Yeah well. I dont like liars,cheapskates or extra sensitive dudes. Well, ya girl had to chuck them dueces and Keep On like D Train. Rapper Dude, Dread Head Dude, Hustle Dude, yeah, your expiration date has passed....