Random As They Wanna Be...

Oooh wee! So much mayhem and so little space to type it all in. Dont matter,Im no quitter. Im going in,as the youngsters say nowadays.No offense to anyone...
1*I have some hatin ass neighbors,real talk.I cant do shit up in here without these nosy broads worrying about what Im doing.Get some friends and a clue and leave me alone.
2*Gotta just get it off my chest,but my ex is one bitter ass man.Who names their new child after the last child they had,except George Foreman?Youre married,asking me who Im dating like it matters!Calling to start mess,you can miss me with the BS.I dont like you.Just being civil for the child's sake.Ok,gave you enough airtime...
3*Men that dont speak up. If you like me ,say it dammit.Im tired of playing Scattegories with yall.Geez ,asking me for over a year when we can get together,yet you never make a move? At this point homeboy,dont bother.I lost interest 8 months ago...
4*If youre broke,stop reproducing.Its just that simple.
5*To whom it may concern(cuz its 2 of yall),take care of home please. Dealing with me will not cure what ails you, it will only confuse you more.Im a hard habit to break .Its ok,I understand. But please know that passing time with me will make your battle that much harder to fight.I really like one of you,but I know and you know that youre not ready.The other,eh.That says it all...

Done for the evening ...Until next time,this has been Mz.Fly DiddyBop,giving you the business as no other can.

Something In Your Eyes That Told Me...

BBD didn't lie a bit! The eyes are definitely the windows to the soul ,although sometimes we need to break out the Windex to wipe some of the cloudiness,i.e. untruth,away.When I was a kid,I remember knowing whether or not someone was cool to deal with,based on what I saw in their eyes. If they didn't look right to me,I wasn't going,and I didnt care if I was being fair or not. That was Lil DiddyBop.Fast forward(mumble mumble)years later,and I still do the same thing. There are other factors  to study,but those eyes never lie. When I look at my hardcore circle of friends,I see love .That's why Ive kept the same ones nearly my entire life.My family,same thing.But there are times when I catch the wrong vibe ,and believe me when I do,Im on the next train out! Ive never been wrong -EVER. For example,I have a gentleman friend that I sometimes keep company with.Im comfortable with him,but when I look at himI know there's a backstory.He continues to give me bits and pieces,not aware that I do know what  the deal is. I saw pain in his gaze the last time we met.He might like me a little,but he's not ready,and I know that just by looking at him.Those eyes of his told an entire story that he couldnt verbalize.Its okay.Sometimes we're not really ready to share all things personal.However we do need to understand that actions and body language can be decifered and decoded.Im just waiting for him to tell what Ive already read  from those sleepy browns of his....

Mirror Mirror...

Im just going to get right to the point on this one.We  must learn as living and breathing adults to be honest with ourselves,others,and to face our fears,no matter how much that truth may hurt. I may have to go in like surgery on this one,but its on my heart.And if anyone knows anything about me,I dont deny the truth.Even when Im at fault,I admit my role.Couldnt face myself if  I lie to ME! With that being said,here goes nothing...
I am terrified of emotional attachment.I mean ,most times I actually may not really feel you like that,but in the cases where I do,Im going to fight it.Hurt feelings suck.And I dont want to experience it.Tragic I know,but Im being honest remember?A few recent instances also weighed heavily on my heart(no offense to anyone)...
Honey,I know you want someone to love you,but turning into and out and out whore at age 30 isnt the way.At this rate ,the only relationship you can build may be with an ex-pimp with dreams of coming out or retirement.Drive Slow Homie..
Next,I know you may think Im great,Sir,but you're just blinded by the light .You have someone who loves you dearly.Dont ruin it .Share your intimate thoughts with her.Im sure she wants to deepen the relationship you two have.After all,I dont get close to married men.Do yourself favor and take care of home....
Finally,,I must sya that you never had me fooled,Sir.I have known the truth for quite some time,althoughyou have yet to admit it to me.Its so obvious that youre hurting right now,however its due to your own misdeeds.If you first come correct with yourself then you can be right with others.From the moment we became acquainted I knew you were searching for that missing piece your life's puzzle.But you cant complete anything with this unfinished business lying around.I liked you,but knew you were hiding something.Strange position for me to be in,but hey,its real.You had me at hello,but when I Googled your ass and found out what you recently confirmed,I gave those feelings the Captain's Salute.I really wish I could have gotten the opportunity to share the inner workings of my heart with you the way I wanted to.But I dont really know who you are.Even worse ,I dont think you do either.You need to do a Michael Jackson and look at the man in the mirror.Youve been doing too much for too long.Now youre emotionally fragile.Time to make that change,Bruh.Our time together was brief.I refuse to get trapped in your web of shenanigans.....

Love's Holiday...

Well here we all are on another Valentine's Day,2011 version. I've read tons of Facebook posts featuring love songs and people saying how they wish they had that special one on this V-Day. I can sympathize,who doesnt want someone in this world to love them? Love is awesome! It feels so good to have someone that you know you'll fight a bear with a toothpick over(you can thank Gramma DiddyBop and Svedka for that last analogy).But I certainly dont want someone just to have them today.Did I have an actual date?No.Did I have some wonderful people acknowledge me today and spend some time with an old friend?I absolutely did,and it felt splendid.My heart is worth so much more than one day a year and I would hope you feel the same about yours too.I like hard and love even harder,so my feelings are a cherished commodity.I want to be loved,cared for and in the waking thoughts of someone all year round.So to ask if Im sad or lonely today?Not one bit. I can buy my own flowers and candy. Im simply being patient and obedient,waiting for my star player to walk onto the court ,donning his Team DiddyBop jersey.#mytruelove....

What Goes Around...

First name Karma,middle name Issa,last name Bit@h.She plays strictly by the book and will flex on anyone that tries to test her 'gangsta'. I know for sure, because she's called me out a few times .Ive had my ass handed to me on several occasions,so I know not to test my limits  with her.However everyone doesnt share my mindset.After so long,the wrong  you impend upon others  comes back,no question.Oh ,you thought that was Publisher's Clearing House ringing the bell with a big stunt check?Nah,it was Big Bad Karma pulling your hoe card,and in the words of my dude from Coming To America,"Your rent's due,muthafu@ka!"Now Im not saying Im perfect by any means.DiddyBop would not say such.But  I will say that I treat people the way I want to be treated. Even though I can be a dick,and will play the part accordingly if needed,its not my nature. Anyone who knows me knows that  I dont show up with my representative,youre getting the pure uncut from the time I introduce myself.I will be good to you until Im given a reason to do otherwise,and otherwise has arrived on the scene.Misunderstandings are one thing,out and out lies are another ;and I dont forgive lying. I feel especially terrible that I stumbled  upon the truth,when I asked for it.Damn shame too.Welp,I wont stop being the person Iam .In time blessings come with obedience.But Ive sat  down with my father at times for heart to hearts and saw the pain in his eyes when he knows Im hurt.Please remember your actions and reconsider because 20 years into the future you may have to wipe your daughter's tears from some jerk that mistreated her,just like youve done  to someone in the present.Be mindful...

It Was All Good Just A Week Ago...

Then came Snowmageddon 2011,or whatever colorful euphemism you choose to bestow upon this wack ass snowstorm we had here in the Chi.In any case,I got something  to get off my chest,for goodness sake the 'girls'sitting up there is enough.Look,for the most part everyone is snowed  in.Unless your alderman is gatdamn Superman and plowed your street himself,youre trapped.So if you cannot  do anything about it,please dont ask me if I need anything,what can you do, none of that.Its just annoying at this point.Also,if we are snowed in together and you have no groceries,and are not making a concerted effort to get to the nearest store,dont think its  going down.I mean ,are  you kidding me?I cant think on an empty stomach,let alone do the freaky sneak.I need to write a manual  for times like these,tentatively titled"How  Not To Lose Your Sweet Thang During Times Of Distress".Just a thought....

Ahem,Is This Thing On? Got Some Truth To Tell....

Tell the truth and shame the devil ,that's what they say,right?Well Im about to be brutally honest and even tell on myself a little.The parties involved probably don't read my blog  anyway,but if so ,that's cool too. This just so happens to be the easiest platform for me to divulge such intimate thoughts.Welp,here goes nothing. Truth is I've been lying to myself for a little while here,saying I didnt care knowing I do.The Larry Dallas alter ego simply didnt kick in with this one no matter how hard I tried.I felt butterflies each time  I saw him,but of course I had to front like it was no big deal. Found myself spending time I dont spend-EVER- and anticipating his calls.Ooooh I was feeling lame.I even focused a little when speaking with him.I know,I know,not the Kid,right?Well yes,I did.Despite having reservations,it just happened. Let's be clear,Im not crazy.I didnt kick the reserves to the curb,but I did take an interest.Bad news is that my feelings are unrequited.Good news,and there is an upside to this.I've discovered that I'm not totally numb to emotion as previously thought. Despite the fact that he may not recognize it,I never lost sight of the gem I truly am.Maybe wrong  place,wrong space,next lifetime perhaps we'll meet again.If not its all good.By my own admission at least ,I can proudly say the flame on my heart still ignites.Job well done DiddyBop,job well done....

You Doing Waaaaaay Too Much...

Im an expert on this subject actually.Before this was a popular catchphrase,Moms would see me spinning my wheels in certain situations and tell me"Slow down,take your time.Youre doing too much.Just Be still..." You know what?She was right on the money.Life has a crazy way of letting you see for yourself that youre headed nowhere fast.Went on a self imposed strike last fall after a fun filled summer with a few near misses.When my life started spinning like the wheel  on Wheel Of Fortune(shout to Pat Sajack),I knew it was time to just stop.No yellow light,no pause,STOP. I came out 30 days later feeling renewed.However Im proud that I recognized the limit on what I could tolerate.Many of us do not and things get crazy for real,like 72 hour hold crazy.If you know its no good for you,let it fly.Just release it .Life is what you make it.We all say we want to live drama free,but do we truly strive for that or just say it because it sounds good?We often create the very same pitfalls we should avoid.Be easy,or you could end up looking like this dude,who clearly did not have that talk with Moms...

Run For Your Life ! Bitchassness Is Outta Control!

Hide your kids,hide your wife,sucka niggas are running rampant on these city streets,even in the case of this blizzard.Over the last 3,count em 3 days,Ive recieved several calls,texts,and inbox messages about someone acting a complete fool.I dont know what is going on but that whole keep it real movement from a few years back is dead.Dead like Uncle Charlie,and he's been dead and buried since 1955.Instead of presenting  the truth,many are comfortable simply living a facade-and never owning up to the what's real.I cant believe in this day and age that people still  engage in this mess. Case#1,getting ghost for NO reason.For real?Who does that you ask?Apparently alot of these weirdos out here.If you have other things going on,or you just dont want to be down no more,just say that.Dont tuck your gatdamn tail and run like freaking Flo Jo and leave the other person on stuck.Trust me,you are burning a bridge. Case #2,keep the babies out of your personal beef. That's some of the lamest ish ever created.Case#3, stop being a dick to those that are good to you,with your selfish ass.You know what?I want to put these a**holes on blast by name,but nah.They'll soon realize that bitch Karma goes in,and she more of a jackass than they could ever be.Im done.Gave you fools enough  airtime....

P.S. In the famous words of Colonel Stinkmeaner:Uz a BITCH!