The Laws Of Attraction

Out of all the choices we have in life,one we have little control over is who we become attracted to. What happens thereafter is completely in our hands. But that immediate feeling is something so primal,so natural.Its when we begin to put our spin on the situation thats when things may,in the famous words of a pimp near you,"hoe up or blow up".

I cant say I was just in love,but I was certainly in like ;much to the dismay of others.Others who were on the outside looking in and saw things were going nowhere fast.When you're in the midst of that magnetism,can't nobody tell you nothing. You gotta learn the hard way. Well I definitely got what I came for with this one.I knew a long time ago that he wasnt being honest about his situation,but I let it slide.Why?Letting the attraction take over when my head already knew. Even worse,the more time we spent,the heart then stepped in for some much needed action.Sorry heart,maybe next time.I went apesh*t on my FaceBook page for like 24 hours,cuz the Kid was hurt.Oh I went in! Funny thing about it though,that only gratified me for a moment. He sent me the wackest damn apology ever in my inbox,and the Band-Aid was snatched right off the wound. I do know this:all the things that he said attracted him to me still exist.Im still cool,still sweet,and of course,Im still fly.That hasnt,and wont change a bit. Somebody that deserves me will get me,cuz Im way too extra for the average guy.That damn DiddyBop.Only the strong survive...

Im Not Your Plaything.....

Well people,here we go again.Back to where I was about a week ago. Letting someone back into my heart and they never really belonged there. Im on some Jeffery Osborne right now y'all,Im only human. However somewhere the madness must stop. I thought maybe last week (the 10th to be exact) I was on some weird hormonal voyage that had me crying like a scared brother on a police show. But nah.My feelings were hurt. I denyed those emotions like Kells denyed it was him on that tape. I cant lie anymore . After seeing him since November and last having spent time with him just a few days ago, I opened that soft note trap door inside me.No good though.Its good in the sense that I know its one day possible for me to feel again and that Im not some heartless vampire without a pulse. But I shed a tear. Two actually.Im a little better now that I did that,but Im done with these shenanigans.First time it was him,this time it was me because I went for the BS. Im cool and all,yeah,but Im nobody's plaything. Get that understood. Its a shame that I continue to be as honest as they come but dont get the same in return. I mean really!Its ok in the end though.You wont keep me hanging on  a string.Cry on Toots' shoulder about all your drama,cuz truthfully, S.V.,its a done deal. I never liked your music anyway....

Even B-Girls Get The Blues...

Hey,its only been 24 hours,so Im entitled to that. Havent really talked about it,dont want to start crying manically again. Writing is my therapy so I will be going extra hard til I get it all out.Wont be long,I'll give it a week ,tops. "Flow" did blow it ,but in true DiddyBop fashion I found a way to bring the focus back to me. He hurt me.The deathblow I felt at that very moment was something I hadnt felt in  like 3 years.In that respect I do credit that dickhead with allowing me to discover that even I am not above having my  heart sliced and diced Ginsu - style.Today was tough,my MAC concealer was working overtime and I did my best to conceal my puffy-cry eyes. I made it though.And it'll only get easier as each day passes. As Ive said time and time again,people dont respect the game.If youre asked in plain English,not Arabic or Chinese,what your intentions are and relationship status,dont lie.That sh*t will blow and burn like Richard Pryor and freebase.Not a good look.If he doesnt realize now,one day he will figure out what he lost. Honey is doing way too much,so Im going to step away and let him continue this disturbing way of life that he's grown used to. The Kid dont do all that,and Im the Queen of doing too much.Im letting the pain run its course.Is it all good?Hell naw! To paraphrase the song,I hope she cheats on him with a million  dollar rapper.But I can say for certain he'll never forget me. By his own admission,Im habit forming. Oh well. C'est la vie,thats life,right?

Eat The Cake ,Anna Mae....

Its been a while since DiddyBop has laced the public with her Shenanigan -laden daily happenings,but that doesnt mean they havent been occuring.A large part of it was family related,and yall know I dont really put my people out there.A few ups and downs,but like Jadakiss says,We gon make it".My personal life,you guessed it: MAYHEM...

Well one thing most people know about me is that I keep it 100% at all times.Probably even when I need to put on the nice - nice. Whatever. I dont want anything Ive done to manifest itself in the form of hurt for someone else. Unfortunately,its happened to me.Even more surprising,my feelings are actually hurt. As much as I fought it,I liked him.I wasnt going shopping for the dress or picking out china patterns,but you get my drift. My usual lackkuster attention span showed up and showed out. Were we casually seeing each other,yes. Did I know he was involved with someone? Hell  naw,cuz I wouldnt have done it,and we did it A LOT! Yeah well,I'll recover. Tried to cry,but them sh*its just went back into my eyes. Guess my job is done.Ive learned a valuable lesson ,and he'll never- EVER forget the one Mz. DiddyBop.You wanna have your cake and eat it too,huh? Well check this out:Anna Mae aint eating the damn cake!No room for desert,got full off bullshit,sorry.P.S. You should sue whoever  tagged you in that pic for damages,cuz you just lost your prize. Damn shame too...