Same Time, Craig...

It's so funny how I can give poignant,'right on time' advice to others, yet still manage to make the dumbest choices at times. Sort of like asking Stevie Wonder for driving or dart shooting pointers. I havent been on this earth this long and havent learned nothing, but I still fall for the okie doke. Yes, I know my worth. Yes,I feel I deserve the best. Have my decisions always reflected this? Hell to the no! I saw him and felt an R.Kelly kinda vibe (get ya mind out the gutter)...'My mind's telling me noooo,but my body's telling me YESSSSSS!!!' .I played it mad cool, but everything in me melted like butter. Not just any butter either. That good restaurant butter that they bring with the rolls to the table.Things went however they went, but I was mad disappointed in myself. Why? Because I thought I was past that. That 'Im Every Woman' speech didnt do sh*t when he gave me that look. You know the look. Stop playing. I've told myself on many occasions that if I happen to see him or if my phone rings to just let it be. What do I do? Just the damn opposite. My mind knows full well what to do and how to do it. My heart on the other hand hasnt quite grasped the concept. It still feels a little tug at times. When a certain song plays. When I past places we've been to together. My heart needs a good talking to. Maybe I can stage an intervention with my heart and mind to get this all straightend out,because right now, Im a mess...