Once Bitten...

Im terrified of falling in love. Yes . I said it . Im totally afraid of allowing myself emotional freedom and giving my all to one that may not take care of it. That I may make a foolish mistake and lose it. That I may devote my love to someone that on the surface, acts as if he wants to be with me when all along he's actually pining for someone else. That he may cheat. That he may stray as soon as he commits. That he'll make illegitimate babies that when I see them I have to act as if it doesnt hurt to look in their sweet innocent faces pissed because I know what got them here.That he will not have been hurt himself to the point where he cannot accept it from me. I dont wake up every morning with these notions in my head, but they do scare me nonetheless. Hey , Im as honest as they come. I only can hope that 'he' will be too...