Your're Like A Hip Hop Song,Ya Know?

Im in a  manic type of mood at this moment. Do I really want to be in a relatioship?Do I want to stay single? Am I shallow,and just like for people to want me? Real talk.The good guys I put on ice,but the ones whose lives are running on treadmills, the attraction is stupid! Its crazy that I recognize this,but even more insane that I perpetuate this behavior.
I had an experience recently that astounded the usually unflappable me.For starters,I never been involved in a situation remotely similar to this.Im seeing a gentleman,we'll call him Flow for the sake of not busting him out.Me and Flow are cool I guess.Started out vibing off some music stuff,he admires my taste,I admire  his skills,then we got personal.A rather casual relationship it is,cuz well,you know the artist type.Im not interested in in his personal drama ,which he seems to have. And even though I know I couldnt deal with him seriously,he makes me feel 'it',whatever that is.I heard music in my head too,but I digress.Everytime we  part ways,I feel strange,in a 'I want you to want me,so I can say nevermind'kind of way.I thought maybe I was catching feelings. Nah,that aint it.But whatever it is,it had me rhyming in the midst of that tantric session.I heard beats and everything.I need to just be easy,because I dont want things to go terribly bad and cannot be salvaged.Hip hop brought us together,but logic,for the sake of my heartstrings ,says we should be apart.Sure,'nigga can Flow',but the beats of my heart won this round...