Tell the truth and shame the devil ,that's what they say,right?Well Im about to be brutally honest and even tell on myself a little.The parties involved probably don't read my blog anyway,but if so ,that's cool too. This just so happens to be the easiest platform for me to divulge such intimate thoughts.Welp,here goes nothing. Truth is I've been lying to myself for a little while here,saying I didnt care knowing I do.The Larry Dallas alter ego simply didnt kick in with this one no matter how hard I tried.I felt butterflies each time I saw him,but of course I had to front like it was no big deal. Found myself spending time I dont spend-EVER- and anticipating his calls.Ooooh I was feeling lame.I even focused a little when speaking with him.I know,I know,not the Kid,right?Well yes,I did.Despite having reservations,it just happened. Let's be clear,Im not crazy.I didnt kick the reserves to the curb,but I did take an interest.Bad news is that my feelings are unrequited.Good news,and there is an upside to this.I've discovered that I'm not totally numb to emotion as previously thought. Despite the fact that he may not recognize it,I never lost sight of the gem I truly am.Maybe wrong place,wrong space,next lifetime perhaps we'll meet again.If not its all good.By my own admission at least ,I can proudly say the flame on my heart still ignites.Job well done DiddyBop,job well done....
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